Mixed feelings...

I want you to do ur best, be your best but somehow I feel I'm restricting you....
I would like you to widen your circle of friends to get to know more people
But it seems like I am still stopping you...

I do not know why I keep having these feelings... Its not you that I do not trust I guess... probably its just me... not having much confidence in myself... *sighz*

Guess I'm still bothered.... by what you wonder... hmmm I don't know...

ahhh dun wish to think about it anymore... Maybe I'm just tired... Tired as in literally tired... I need rest I guess... lol... hope later part of the day will be fun... keke

Will be watching night at the museum later in the afternoon and dinner at my granny's place at night... heehee

Shall end off with a clip I stumbled upon... listen to the lyrics... meaningful...

When are you coming home


You were almost sixteen when I came into the world.
Mom and Dad had you first then 3 more boys I'm the baby girl.
I sure have a lot to look up to in you, you're really smart and funny with a big heart too.
After one year of college you knew what you had to do.
It's just like you wanting to help with the war.
So you joined the army when I was only 4.
This time of year we talk of big plans but you're over seas in some distant land.
You can't be here for Christmas, I don't understand.
Chorus:
When are you coming home, Shaun?
When are you coming home?!
We lit up the house like we always do but it doesn't seem bright 'cause we can't have you.
In my prayers I ask God to keep you safe.
And I'm trying to be really brave.
Tell me that the fighting's through.
Come home!
I really miss you.

It's hard to enjoy the holidays without you.
But we're so proud of you and all the red white and blue.
Remember that Jesus is your best friend,
And someday our families will be together again.
Wow! You know we'll have a great big party then.

Chorus

I want to show you how tall I've grown and introduce you to my new friends at school.
Maybe we could go and get some ice cream together but I really don't care what we do.

Got this from Shal's blog... my fears...

[ ]the dark
[x]staying single forever
[ ]a parent
[ ]giving birth
[ ]being myself in front of others
[ ]open spaces
[ ]closed spaces
[x]heights
[ ]black cats
[ ]dogs
[ ]birds - crows.
[ ]fish
[x]spiders, ticks and/or other insects
[ ]driving or being in cars
[ ]flying
[ ]flowers or other plants
[ ]being touched
[ ]fire
[ ]deep water
[ ]the ocean
[ ]failure
[ ]success
[ ]thunder/lightning
[ ]my boyfriends/girlfriends dad
[ ]my boyfriends/girlfriends mom
[ ]mice/rats
[x]jumping from high places
[ ]snow
[ ]rain
[ ]wind
[ ]crossing hanging bridges
[ ]death
[ ]Heaven
[ ]being robbed
[ ]cotton balls
[ ]cemeteries
[ ]clowns
[ ]large crowds
[ ]men
[ ]women
[ ]having great responsibility
[ ]doctors, including dentists
[ ]tornadoes
[ ]hurricanes
[x]diseases
[x]snakes
[ ]sharks
[ ]Friday the 13th
[ ]poverty
[ ]ghosts
[ ]Halloween
[ ]school
[ ]trains or railroads
[ ]odd numbers
[ ]even numbers
[x]being alone
[x]being blind
[x]being deaf
[x]growing up
[x]monsters under my bed
[x]creepy noises in the night
[x]bee stings
[ ]not accomplishing my dreams/goals
[x]needles
[ ]blood
[ ]dinosaurs
[ ]the welcome mat

Merry Merry Christmas everybody!!!!!!!!!!

Went K boxing with the girls... Then forbidden city... totally enjoyed myself!!! keke... We should be out more often!!!!! Had many many pretty pressiez too!!!!!!! look!!!!!

MY PREZZIES~~~~

Its the eve of CHIRSTMAS!!!!!!!!! YAY~

Was supposed to be off yesterday but smthing happened to one of my collegue so I was called back at the last minute... but the end ended well keke... After work, met up with Eugene... cos he was gonna fly off this morning to US so decided to meet him for awhile and at the same time gave him his farewell/x'mas gift heehee... After meeting him, dar and I went Holland V for dinner... later met froggy, her "octy" (LOL) and Ena for singing session at Party World!!!! As usual had ubber good fun and laughter then went to Prata House for supper with the bunch, Clara and Cindy....

And tonight??? haha...

WILL BE OUT PARTYING!!!! CAN"T WAIT!!!!!!!!!

Remember I mentioned in my blog about life being like a game of super mario?? Well... Now I'm totally convinced its like super mario... I feel myself being in the game... in my everyday life... and now I'm tired... I need rest I need a break... Not having a decent rest in 4 weeks is no joke... Try working from mondays to fridays, 12 hours a day... then on sat which is supposed to be half day, about 8 full hours... One day, I'll eventually break down... This week wasn't exactly a good week too... lotsa complaints, work load just piling up, and I need to do some last min xmas shopping...

Well, at least I got everything done today... and everything done today = starting the day early to do all my errands... and the sky wasn't nice to me... I was late due to the horrible rain... argh~ and tmr, will be another day of fierce battle... I can't wait for christmas... Will be having my well deserved off days and rest... heh~

Can't wait =)

Note: No worries... you're still new... In no time, you'll master whatever you need to know or do... just give yourself some time... and if u need help, Joanne, May and I will be here... alright?? *jia you jia you*

I'M BACK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Had a wonderful wonderful nite out with dar... Had dinner at Secret Garden, watched Happy Feet at PS!!!!!!! heehee.... gooodie goodie goodie... and took lots n lots of random pics too!!!! keke...

Tigger Poop Sony T7 Ngee Ann

Balloons Citigems Fishing

East Coast Cars Integras Kbox Pool

Plaza Sing

and the list goes on....

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAR........ LOVE YA!!!! *muacks*

randomness...

oooh... do u see the similarities???

his pressie....

I just can't believe it... haha somebody pooped at branch again today!!!!!! disgusting!!!!! Absolutly disgusting... I dun get it... Can't those pple just say sorry but i needa wash room I'll be back... is it so difficult?? *sighz* keke

But today, it will be a goddie happy night cos... I'll be celebrating with dardar his BDAE!!!!!!!!! heehee... shhh... shan't tell what I have in stored for him... His actual bdae is on Monday but Monday the both of us are working, so I've decided to celebrate for him early... heehee... Will be updating real soon with pics and other stuff... thou will be back again really soon...
heehee...

This is bad... This is really bad...

Was down with stomach flu 2 days ago and now I'm really down with flu... garrrr

Feeling so lethargic all day... and I miss my yoga lesson!!!! NOOOO!!!!!! hmmm... guess mummy will hafta teach me when she comes back and when I'm feeling much better then... =)

Woke up at 10 plus this morning, waited for dar's call and went to TM... wanted to watch Happy Feet but my sily nose didn't allow me to... so walked around aimlessly till bout 5... Couldn't take it anymore... came home to have a good rest.

Had dinner at AMK GRC last nite. It was their 26th anniversary celebration... ubber boring... Lotsa old aunties n uncles, watched some 'ge tai' pple perform...

Friday nite:
Met dar for dinner, went to my old school... reminising the past... *sighz* I know I shouldn't be always looking back into the past... But I can't help it... I really miss school!!!

C.H.I.J Toa Payoh (Primary)
C.H.I.J Toa Payoh (Secondary)

A clip Onion sent me....

stomach flu = mc = rotting at home....

Went to work as per normal this morning thinking it was just some normal tummy ache.... but when I reached my workplace, felt super lousy... had no energy to do anything, so in the end went to visit the doc, took a day mc and am resting at home...

Doc said if I still feel pain tmr... go and see him again, cos it might be appendix... shoots... I hope tmr everything will be alright...

*sighz* Just flipped through all my old pics... and I miss being a kid!!!!!!! All the laughter and joy... the carefree life... I miss them all!!!!! ahhh!!!!!!!! Feel like playing super mario... lol... super out of point but I love that game... anyone knows where I can play super mario online or downloaded pls let me know?? I wanna play~

see how cute happy and carefree I was?? lol...