Not in the mood

I dunnoe why but I seem to haf this big and heavy load that I can't seem to get off my chest... my granny just passed on afew days ago... 16th Nov... Everyone was present at the hospital on that night except me... I was out... enjoying myself... everyone tried to contact me... but I do not know why I never received any miss calls...

when I got home later that night... about 10, someone called the house... it was my dad... he told me mummy and he were at the hospital and do not know if my granny could make it through... I wanted to rush down but my dad told me to stay home and sleep early cos the next day I had to go to work... So i heeded my dad's advice and went straight to bed...

The next morning, mummy told me grandma has passed away... I was shocked... this is all too sudden to me... I just couldn't accept it... I went to work... told my assisting manager about it and she gave me 3 days off for the wake...

After applying my leave, I straight away went back home and prepare myself for the wake... when I reached the church... said my prayer, went up and looked at her... she seems so happy... she was smiling... for the past 3 yrs... I've never really seen her smile... she looked so pretty... I miss her.. I really do... when I saw my cousin, the both of us just smiled and started talking about our childhood... what a nice and patient lady she was... and how we used to make her angry with all our nonsense...

At the funeral mass, I've realised what a brave lady she was... my eldest uncle told us that during the jap occupation, my granny risked her life, jumped onto their roof and climbed over a 2 meter high wall to warn my grandfather about the japanese looking high and low for him... at that time, she was already a mother of 10... I really admire her for her bravery and whatever she has done to try keep the family together....

I really really miss my grandma...

numb

Lyrics to fly away by Corrinne May:

When will you be home?" she asks
as we watch the planes take off
We both know we have no clear answer
to where my dreams may lead
She's watched me as I crawled and stumbled
As a child, she was my world
And now to let me go, I know she bleeds
and yet she says to me

You can fly so high
Keep your gaze upon the sky
I'll be praying every step along the way
Even though it breaks my heart to know we'll be so far apart
I love you too much to make you stay
Baby fly away

Autumn leaves fell into spring time and
Silver-painted hair
Daddy called one evening saying
"We need you. Please come back"
When I saw her laying in her bed
Fragile as a child
Pale just like an angel taking flight
I held her as I cried

You can fly so high
Keep your gaze upon the sky
I'll be praying every step along the way
Even though it breaks my heart to know we'll be so far apart
I love you too much to make you stay
Baby fly away

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PENNYOLOPY!!!!

hahaha... like the name I just gave u?? heehee Celebrated Penny's bdae at Sin Ming Plaza yesterday... haha... Had sooo much fun... missed everyone espacially Liwen and Penny.... its been quite some time since I met up with them... ahhh!!! haha... and I think my hair's in a mess... thou shall go cut it on my off day which is this coming Thursday!!! YAY!!! A day I can dun work and relax... heeez...

We got a helmet for Penny and the worst was it was of the wrong size!!! ggrrr... lol so dar and I will be going down to Jalan Basah later to get it changed to a size bigger lol...

Gonna watch Harry Potter with my darling gfs and Jon!!! yay!!! (Uncle Jon... see now I dun include as gf anymore heehee happier?? lol) sooo exciting.... I'm gonna try my luck at the catch catch machine... wanna try for another murray cat... heehee...

my blog's going dead

Been lazy... haha... My life seems to be so monotonous that I haf no idea what to blog about... haha... Partly Being lazy me.. I can't really be bothered to type as well...

Went to catch the movie "All about love" with dar yesterday... storyline wasn't bad but found that Andy Lau and Charlene Choi dun really match as in their age difference... Andy in the show looks like a pedophile... *oops* lol... But the movie does says alot on how we should treasure those around us and not take them for granted as u'll never know when the person might leave you.

After the movie, went kbox... for once I was sick of singing... After k boxing, it was already 1 plus 2am... tired... so came home...

Sunday: online the whole day... at last... I have the time to rot at home... how I miss those days whereby I do nothing but slack at home... Now at least I have somthing to look forward to... Penny's 21st!!!! next saturday!!! Ooooh!!! I can hardly wait!!! lol... bet it will be fun fun fun!! heehee...